FREEDOM 7

P. 39-49

We continue to explore the influence of History on our decision making process and also that when our choices are governed or directed by history these choices, come, many times unconsciously through the limited sense of awareness of my ego or personality consciousness. 

There is a marvelous reflection at the beginning of Kurt Vonnegut's book Deadeye Dick that I quote here verbatim:

“To the As-Yet-Unborn, to all innocent wisps of undifferentiated nothingness: Watch out for life. I have caught life. I have come down with life. I was a wisp of undifferentiated nothingness, and then a little peephole opened quite suddenly. Light and sound poured in. Voices began to describe me and my surroundings. Nothing they said could be appealed. They said I was a boy named Rudolf Waltz, and that was that. They said the year was 1932, and that was that. They said I was in Midland City, Ohio, and that was that. They never shut up. Year after year they piled detail upon detail. They do it still. You know what they say now? They say the year is 1982, and that i am fifty years old. Blah blah blah.”

Of course, you can fill in the blanks yourself with your own life and your own history, and as amusing as that sounds, we also realize how captive we can be, not only by our own history, but by other people's description of our history.

“The Divine Self, as we have said many times, could care less what anybody thinks of him or her.* She is free. She is not operating from the dictates of fashion or culture or equivalence that she may have inherited, depending on where she was born and in what year. The Divine as what you are will not be appropriated by the small self.”

Because it cannot be “appropriated by the small self.” I’m reminded of that wonderful truth spoken by The Little Prince: “It is only with the heart that one sees rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye.” 

*in and earlier book, I believe it states, “The Divine Self could care less how you feel!”

The truth of Who You Are will always be here, but if you choose, you can block the experience of knowing who you are. Why would anyone do that? you ask. Well, for the most part, shutting out the higher truth or the higher vibration is not something we do consciously, but it happens almost automatically when we are in a state of unawareness or sleepfulness, such as when we are being directed by our history. There are times as well when we become convinced that the spiritual path is too painful or difficult or when we give into the seeming weariness of our small self or our limited perception. Again so much of this is a reflection of what aspect of the self we are choosing either consciously or unconsciously to identify with. 

“You have understood surrender in some ways, but the truth of surrender is acceptance, acceptance of the self and all aspects of the self, because nothing can really be moved until it is aligned to and allowed to be moved to a higher “way. If you accept another, like him or not, agree with him or not, you can go into an agreement with who and what she is outside of the small self’s prescriptions. If you judge another, you have every right to believe that you judge yourself in the same fashion. And if you give permission to the True Self to support you in this way, you will find very quickly that you can know yourself without judgment with the support of the aspect of you that would find it impossible to judge.”

“Impossible to judge,” how could that ever happen. In previous works when we have described choosing a higher vibration, there comes with that choice the awareness that old thoughts, beliefs, and patterns of behavior can no longer exist in that higher realm. We become like Teflon; and those older energies that no longer serve us simply have no place to land. There is nothing for them to stick to.

Just for example, imagine that you are in a state of resentfulness lower vibration. If you become observant and aware enough, what you will discover is that practically anything that comes along in your life will cause annoyance. In other words in this state of low vibration your consciousness is extremely “sticky” and almost magnetic. It will attract to you annoyances that you might not even ordinarily be aware of. That's the other side of the picture, instead of being Teflon in the lower vibration you are now Velcro.

We took some time to observe or delineate the process of raising our vibration, to take it out of the realm of the merely theoretical and to give ourselves the opportunity to consciously explore what that really means. The simplest form it takes for me is asking myself the question “Is this thought that I am having, is this action that I am contemplating, does it open my heart or does it close my heart.” Open Heart, High vibration, surrender, acceptance// closed heart, separateness, low vibration, judgment, fear. 

Now it is obvious that we are not speaking of your physical heart nor are we speaking of your emotional heart this is more of the spiritual hear--the place within you that you perceive with Oneness. After a bit of practice you can gently become aware of what it is like to have an open heart in terms of compassion love warm non judgment, and what it is like to have a closed heart separateness self-centeredness fear.

It is a simple exercise and yet can be a quite powerful learning experience.

“You must understand this, friends. The True Self does not judge. She does not fear. She does not speak ill of her fellows. She does not speak ill of her small self, either. Why would she? How would she be a friend and an ally if she did such a thing? The Divine as what you are, in manifestation as you, will realize herself at the cost of the known—underline will—and that does include aspects of the self that are out of alignment, weeds in a garden, if you wish, that are prohibiting her from her full manifestation.”

Even the things that come along in life that seemed to get in the way of my more perfect alignment with my Divine self, all of these are lessons to be learned. They are not bad or evil or even wrong. This Is The Stuff of my life and I have chosen as a spiritual being to be an aspect of my learning and evolution. A buddhist teacher once said, The stuff that is in my way is my way.”

Be aware that the stuff that comes up to be released or healed might not always be terribly comfortable and might not fit with our small self image of the self.

I believe the Course states something to the effect “God cannot heal what we are not willing to let go of. So even those things that come to our awareness like anger or fear or jealousy or pettiness, aspects of our life that we do not like to admit even to ourselves, need to be loved and embraced in order to be healed and released. 

“When you accept that they are there, you can attend to them, but the True Self as you will attend to them far better and in perfect ways than the small self could ever manage. While the prideful man may become aware of his pride, he will not eradicate pride. He has no ability to do that. The Divine Self certainly does because the Divine Self is not prideful, and his manifestation comes forth in purview. The pride that he has known will be reckoned with, faced, and seen, in order to release so that the True Self may come forth in full bloom.”

When we are aware and in a higher state of consciousness this awareness effects all beings. because we become less and less identified with our personality selves we become less inclined to be lost in our own separate identities. 

“The one who knows who she is by nature of being, not through effort, knows who everybody else is as well. She cannot deny the divinity in anyone or anything because that is how she is known, and all she must know is in consort with that. Through the knowing of another, the other is lifted in vibration to a commensurate octave. The octave is present, the one in the high octave sees the truth in the one in the lower, and because she does, the field of the other meets the high, and in that communion you bear witness to truth at the cost of the known. “Behold, I make all things new.”

We end with a challenge 

“The acclimation you have to the lives you live now, and will continue to live in complicit nature, will be changing very shortly. You cannot ignore what is in front of you, and like it as you wish, what is before you will not be in your choice in a conscious way, but may well be what the collective has called forth to know itself through. Now when we “teach you freedom, we teach you collective structures and your acclimation to them so you may move beyond them. If you don’t understand that you are complicit to what you see—which simply means that because you are here with them, because you witness them, you are partaking in them and informing them energetically by your consciousness—you cannot understand that how you hold anything in vision supports what you see and in the ways you claim it.”

The world that we live in and our perception of it and all beings that inhabit it are a reflection of our own created Energies. As long as I am holding onto what I might call the “inevitability of history” then the more I am perpetuating the illusion of separateness. Just as a for instance, as long as I am thinking as an individual and a racial consciousness that war and conflict are inevitable then they will be inevitable.

In Love, Grace and Gratitude